I could go hiding. Far away from people, world and everyone. To a place of my own creation. I have been blessed with that little thing called imagination or survival instincts if you may, and that will let me create this make believe world around me, a small little haven where I could stay locked up in a tower for a while and not think about anything else. Its easy to do that, so just sit back and think that you cannot do anything now, now it has all been done. It has been said and it as been foretold.
I have decided.
I am going back to my old life. The life I ran away from. The life which remains unfinished, untold and unsaid. Maybe this is the sign that I need to finish that, what I had begun so many years ago. That escapism isnt the answer. That running away is temporary and that you need to do your karma till it finishes its cycle.
While I sit back and think over the years gone by and what was and what is now, I am scared, I dont know if I am up for it all over again, if I will be able to survive, if I have it in me, to muster the courage to fight and then to remain. I dont know any of that. I may not last long in this. I dont even know if this is what I wanted from my life, hell I never knew what I wanted anyway. But this is it then.
Life try me.
Its not like I have a choice.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
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yes, emotional and physical geographics are not the answer, delay and avoidance will hunt you down! i have recently come back to those demons because i have DECIDED to move forward and i dont want to leave bits of me behind (emotional leprosy!). you are stronger than you realize, you've chosen the harder path because you know its right (or i could be totally projecting!)
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