Who Knows...

It's been a long road that I have been traveling and now finally I feel so exhausted and tired with no strength to carry on. What must I do to make it right? I cannot understand it, each time I sit somewhere with no will to carry on, I tell myself to have faith in myself and try to make it. But now it feels like there is no end in sight. It's the darkest hour of the night. I am trapped in my own being and all I need is to just stop.

Maybe I should just give it all up and move on. Maybe it isn't for me anymore. Maybe all of this was a waste, it was just me trying to run after a foolish dream. I should give up.

Perhaps I will give up. Soon.
Very soon.

And then

Why must life be so complicated? Sometimes I wonder if it is on purpose; this charade of giving you all that you desire. It's never what you really wanted, it can never be in that shape or size or manner as you demanded. Why must there be games in life. Why must it be difficult. Why can't it be easy - just for once? Okay, maybe not easy but just simple?

Why?